Having very weird mood swings, all leaning towards the depressive kind. Again, dangerous stuff considering where we are in the semester, so I need to get my shit together.

I think I’ve been forgetting to take my meds, which is the only explanation for the sudden shifts.

I’ve been essentially out of it all week.

Today I learned that if a series of disappointments are not followed by positive reinforcement, regardless of the nature of said disappointment, one will feel hurt.

It was interesting. I had to remind myself to keep things in perspective, and take some weight off the trigger, but it was kind of funny, the way the whole thing felt. Very strange and unusual.

Going to Sta. Maria on Saturday, and another concert tomorrow. Hopefully it’ll lift my moods.

Sent in long-term plan to my father (the Canada pitch), and potential houses for rent near the school.

Did some calculations, and it seems if I work for a year give or take a few months, I could study in Canada for the duration of a semester.

I could always just spend all summer, and it’d be tons cheaper.

It’s ridiculous how fed up I am of school. Which is a perfectly normal, as well as recurrent part of just being in college.

Still, I am so burnt out at this point, it’s ridiculous.

Then I’m being an emotional masochist and exposing myself for needless hurt. It’s all curiosity, really. One of those ‘let’s see how much I can take’ experiments.

It’ll be interesting. It always is.