On my attachment issues:

The same teacher from last time, keeps asking how I’m ‘adjusting’ to this group, and how I ‘feel’ about my classmates.

I always answer truthfully— I’ve gone from calibrating, to simply being indifferent towards them.

He was shocked, and asked why. I replied that it was because they were just classmates, not friends, or people I generally care about, hence I’m indifferent towards them.

This lead to his pushing a freaking button, by psychoanalyzing me— without my consent— to my face, and asking if I had trouble getting along with people, or letting people in.

I said that I had no trouble letting people in. I simply have a preference against it. I don’t like going into groups and pouncing at its members and becoming BFFs with them out of the blue.

My attachment issues don’t mean I have trouble growing attached. Hell, that’s pretty damn easy to do, and I do it even if I don’t want to. No, my ‘issues’ consist in the fact that I don’t like opening up to people.

I don’t care to.

I don’t like having too may people close to me.

It’s emotionally exhausting., and you’re opening yourself up to getting hurt, when half the time it’s not worth it. I choose the people I open up to, and choose who I keep close, on the basis of who I don’t mind getting hurt by, or rather, by who’s worth the potential emotional pain.

It sounds cynical and pessimistic, but that’s what 21 years of dealing with people has done to me.

Does it interfere with my functionality?

No.

I have no problem getting along with people, especially not at a superficial level. I have no problem acting on the basis of what is most convenient for me, and I certainly have no problem establishing acquaintances.

So yeah, I have ‘attachment issues’, no they don’t affect the way I socialize or get along with people. I’m a perfectly agreeable person regardless. I simply don’t open up, heart on my sleeve to anyone who so much as says ‘Hello’ to me, yet have no problem opening up, once I choose to, and see the person’s worth it.